Being betrayed is not something new to me. I can say that I am used to it by now. I know that I must not get use to it but what can I do? She always do that to me. And here I am the always forgiving one.
The reason why I am writing this is that I’ve had enough. It’s been what — 6 years — and yet she’s doing it again and again. I don’t know if it’s with the same guy or what but who cares? It’s still cheating.
I always thought that I am the reason why she’s doing it. Maybe because I am not a loving girl or whatever. I also thought that maybe he’s the one who has the problem here. But no one can really blame anyone with this. It’s still her choice if she’s going to do it or not.
But now I’ve had enough. She really has the guts to bring the guy here in our house. I don’t know how to act. I am the only one who knows the guy. The others don’t know (or they do but they are just like me, don’t know what to do). But this is just crap!
I wanted to act normal around them but all I can do is stay quiet. Shut my mouth or blow everything up. I am writing this because I am sure. I know for sure that he is the guy. I have proof. Evidence. I also saw it with my own eyes so no one can say that I am just hallucinating it. I saw their convo and stuff like that.
But this has gone far. I want to bombard them with words that I want to express so much. I want to punch someone. I want to smack someone. I want to kill someone.